topeze's Journal

Past month
Nov 21 2008 00:14

So, I just looked back the past month, and my weigh ins totally suck!!!  I mean, I know I wasn't doing as well, had family in town and all, but jeez.  I take pics and measure every month in about the middle.  So, going back four weeks, I'm hovering right at 300.  And all the weigh ins after that, I'm between 298.2 and 300.2.  That's pathetic!!  Part of the fluctuations was just my body, so I really don't get irritated at myself for that, just my body for not cooperating.  But there are times that it was totally my fault.  It's just frustrating to see that I wasted this time.  Stupid, stupid.

But, I stayed on track today.  Ate a little more cheese than I had previously and had a Starbucks tall skinny latte.  But, they all fit in calorie wise, lots of water, and no chocolate (I do not count my fiber one bars, I live on those).  And the Starbucks trips was actually BECAUSE of all the water.  As a guy I knew would say, I needed to pee like a racehorse.  I left a client house and that was the first bathroom I could use without having to turn left across traffic.  But, you have to walk through to get to the bathroom, so I felt strange not getting a drink.  The guy was actually funny, too.  So, a skinny latte.  No whip?  No caramel on top?  Nothing?  None of the good stuff?  Are you sure?  How about a little on the top, I can do a smiley face?  Haha, was funny.  He even said something about needing to splurge sometimes, which I laughed at.  To which I mentioned I was trying to get smaller, not larger.  Although later, I realized I should have said that it was a splurge for me!!  I never drink calories.  I drink water.  And milk, which was a neverending supply for me, is basically a cheat day and cereal item.  And I never really liked soda.  So, no drinking calories.

Alright, I should be off to bed.  I remember thinking in college that the day I started going to bed at 11 (regularly, of course) was when I had really gotten old.  And by old, it was more a state of mind thing.  Always been a night owl.  But, this is late enough since I gotta get up in the morning and drive the daughter to school.  Hehe, she always tries to sing in the car and I'm so not a morning person and cannot handle singing.  My response is always "What's my rule about singing in the morning?"  Joking of course, but also making sure she does in fact stop.  Then she talks the rest of the way.  So silly...I think she'd die if she had to stop talking for 5 minutes straight.